Friday, December 12, 2008


I read this today and it made me sad.....for a minute.

It's written by a girl that was goin' through a bunch of shit and the weight of it all fell on her at once. The only thing she wanted to do, and ultimatley did, was call her best friend to whom she hadn't spoken to in three years.

After I read it, I thought "it goes away and comes goes away and comes back".

For me, the story's different in many ways, but it still made me think. Yeah, it all went away for awhile, then it came back when I got a call one day saying "she's changed.....maybe you could let the past be in the past and start over". That was one of the strangest calls I've had in my entire life. It was desperate almost....I felt bad and almost caved, but the bottom line was if it was that important, shouldn't SOMEONE ELSE be making that call?

Shortly after "that call" everybody wanted to talk to me for a minute or two about all of it which irritated the shit outta me, but it did eventually all go away again. Then I read that blog and it comes back AGAIN.....but not because of the loss of a particular friendship. That's not what got to me. Not anymore anyways. It's that I don't have that type of friendship with anyone anymore. Atleast not with anyone that lives in the same state. Right now, my best girlfriend lives like 1000 miles away and sometimes you just need to be able to get in the car and go to their house. I also have J, who is my best friend, but sometimes men are just no good for what a girl needs! Girl's need that person they can escape to. Someone you can physically sit and be with....someone that gets you 100%.

I've got an ass ton of friends now, but I don't have that one person anymore. I'm gonna say sucks. I'm not sure that I will ever have that sort of friendship again and yep, it sucks!

Now, I'm gonna go poke myself in the eyeball so I can produce some tears, because that's sad.


Stitchblade said...

dude....but I've ALWAYS been there :)

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